Am I Lost?

Salam to all Muslims and a good day to the Non-Muslims..

I just went back home after having fun with new friends and I am totally drunk. So I just felt like i want to write something here.

Before I move on to the topic, I wish to tell everyone; readers that I am a girl who only loves a girl. I know it was so wrong but I couldn't help to avoid this feeling since I was in kindergarten, since I started to meet peoples. Meeting other girls specifically. So, to be honest I was so in love with this one girl I've met in the social networking web, a special credit to Mark Zueckerberg ( whatever the spelling..It was hard to remember. Haha~ )


I don't know why I trusted this girl. When she said she was in love with me because I did feel the same way. I don't know why I was brutally care so much for her. I don't know why my heart could give a space for her. I never thought that I would have this wonderful feelings; peoples called it's love.. again. For all this while, after being broken hear-ted, being good for nothing, being a fooled, being played being dumped, I would consider another person to take control of my heart. She said I was the one controlling her but instead I was the one being controlled.

People says that I was a complicated person. People says that I was not easy to be friend. People says that I was too careful of choosing a friend. People says that it was hard to make me believe. People says that I was too independent which I wouldn't have to rely on anybody. They were so fucking wrong. If I was like that how could I fall for this girl, how could I believe in everything she said to me, how could I easily have faith in her. Maybe it was magic and maybe it was my imagination. Whatever it is, it was something my heart holds for now. I won't care too much what will happens next because I won't regret something I have now. We will figure out things we should do once we face the obstacle.

I will let this feelings grows day to day. I am so fucking in love with you, Miya. If you were here right beside me,around my arms..I am going to hold you tight and never let loose.. I'm telling you that I will not letting you go. Never !!

Please don't go.. Baby

Holding You.

P.s  : Screwed you..! It's my life. I never get involve into yours. So, FUCK the shut up!!